Alot of people say that a child changes your life forever, and they are very right in saying that. When Shawn and I had Rhailynne we were scared and excited at the same time. What are we going to do with a baby? How is our life going to change? Will we be good parents? How are we ever going to be able to raise this child without mentally destroying our baby? We read all the baby books out there, we asked everyone we knew with children for advice, bugged our doctor until she was ready to pull out her hair, in an attempt to learn how to be "the best parents out there". Then we realized something.....They don't know ANYTHING!!!!!
The moment we had Rhailynne we both realized that this was one thing in life that we could not prep or put a game plan to. Parenting is a thing in life that you just have to (to put into better words) wing it! When I held my little girl in my hands I have never felt such fear and love in the same moment.
Now sitting here knowing that after two long years we are about to have baby # 2, the same feelings that I had for Rhailynne are creeping up on me again..... only thins time times two. How are we going to raise this baby and make sure Rhailynne mentally and emotionally happy with this new being in our family structure? How can I make Rhailynne understand that even though this baby is going to take up a lot of Mommy and Daddy's time, we still love her very much? How in the world are Shawn and I going to have the time and energy to raise a newborn and an infant? I guess that these things like the concerns I had for Rhailynne before she was born will be answered in time.
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